The more I become open about my beliefs and convictions, the more I see friends of mine that hold very different beliefs becoming more open with me. It’s kind of inevitable, and I welcome it without taking any offense. I do, however, realize that the way I speak on social media (and in everyday life, for that matter) is in direct contrast to the way that I spoke in previous times and places. If you want specifics, I’m referring mainly to the friends and coworkers I spent time with during my Disney College Program, and I wanted to clear the air and be very direct with my feelings. So, as read in the title, here are 3 things that I really, really want you to know.
- I was not as comfortable around you as I should have been.
Our generation has been one filled with disunity and hatred. Specifically, I have seen many people hurt by the blunt nature of some Christians sharing their beliefs. There has been a stigma of all Christians simply screaming that you are going to hell in a hand basket, and as a result, many who do not belief in God have come to dislike or even hate Christians completely.
I saw this, and decided that I wanted to be different. I wanted to show that I could still be inclusive and accepting while still holding true to my beliefs. The issue was that in my attempt to do this I became SILENT with my beliefs. Sure, you knew I was a believer in Jesus Christ, but not one time did I ever tell you that He loved you and that He wanted to be a part of your life more than anything. In my attempt to not scare you by saying you were damned to hell, I was too afraid to tell you of the absolute best thing in the entire world. I want to apologize for that. I never should have let my lack of comfortability scare me away from speaking truth out loud.
You were all so inspiring with how confident you were in your beliefs, and I should have been the same. My beliefs now are the same as they were when you were around me. I do not shy away from the fact that I am a conservative, pro-life, Trump-supporting Christian who disagrees with gay marriage and does not believe that any kind of LGBTQ lifestyle is godly and right. My regret is that I was not more open about that in the time we spent together.
- I don’t hate you, and I don’t want to change you.
I want to make something very clear. Love is at the center of what I believe. When Jesus was asked what the greatest commandment of all time was, He answered with two. He said the number one was to love God, and the number two was to love people. I don’t read your posts filled with passion for what you believe and stew in anger that it isn’t the same as me. In fact, I don’t even care if you believe every single thing I do!
I have a HIGH amount of friends that are Christians and still disagree with me! I have Christian friends who are pro-choice, pro-LGBTQ, and as liberal as they come. I do not believe at all that these things change their salvation.
If you go the rest of your life believing these things, it doesn’t change anything for me. I love no matter what, and nothing you could ever do or say could change that. Whether you believe in Jesus or not, you are my friend. I love you.
- I want the world to know the Jesus that I know.
Jesus has changed my life. He is the reason I am bubbly and joyful and so content, even when my life is going crappy. I have been 100% healed of the depression and anxiety that multiple doctors said I would have for the rest of my life. I have had multiple addictions and have quit all of them cold turkey. And even more important than any of those things, I have found somebody that loves me and is there at all times.
When I am alone and every human has forsaken and abandoned me, Jesus is right there whispering how much He loves me and reminding me of how worthy I am. The Creator and King of the entire universe knows the tiny and intimate details of my entire life. And I cannot go a single day more without telling you that He loves YOU that way.
His biggest desires are not turning you straight, making you a prude, or forcing you to vote for a candidate you don’t agree with. You would be surprised by how much changes from knowing Him, but that’s not His first priority. His biggest desire and the reason He gave up His very life for you is to bridge the divide that you had from Him. There’s a space between you and God that is FAR too large to get through with anything you could do. Jesus eliminated that. He wants to know you. He wants to love you. He wants to hold you when you’re down and celebrate with you on your greatest days. I don’t care about any secondary belief. None of it matters. All that matters is love, and true love is only found in Him.
I hope this clarified my feelings. I welcome your disagreement. We can grow together through it. Just know how much I love every single one of you, and know that Jesus loves you more than I ever could.